-March 22, 2006-

I'm Back~
From those...lazy...homeork full days.

The Astronomy Boardgame and the other project is due in.. 6 days?
Too bad I have to work alone (cause of SOME person)
Anyways. I'm planning to update some more stuff and change the layout...
But not sure when I'm gonna have time!
 (you lazy person)

So. Just hang on tight then~

Artwork: Dancing with Teddy
Materials: Tablet and PSP 6 (?)

Wow... I feel.. so pathetic.

Today  I got yelled at my mom and I cried. (I'm such a crybaby but I can't help it!)
I didn't actually cry because of her. I actually cried at myself. How lazy.. how stupid.. and how inconsiderate I was. But now, I'm so happy. that I have a mother like her. Someone that helps me back up and makes me want more. She helped me put myself back together (using insults and stuff) but truthfully, without her, I wouldn't be able to type this right now.

So I thank her. By looking back and seeimg myself cry, I made a goal. I promised myself that I would never cry infront of a disappointed person again. When there's a bad side, there's always something good behind it. You just have to be able to find it.

I know some people are saying I'm such a crybaby for crying just because my mom yelled at me for being so slow and so lazy and so stupid. But I just needed something to hit me on the head saying get back on the road. Now, I DONT regret ANYTHING anymore. It's a new start.. you know that feeling.. :]

Anyways, it's a quick warning but.. SCHOOL FREAKIN STARTS IN 1 WEEK PRACTICALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

...okay.. and I gotta go up and study my butt off.. Good luck everyone!

I'M LEAVING ON JULY 9TH!
YOU'LL NEVER SEE ME AGAIN. EVER.

IT WAS FUN KNOWING ALL YOU GUYS. T¤±T

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BYE BYE...

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I'M JOKING PEOPLE! >-<!
Don't Kill Me. Please. I BEEEGGGGG you.

Anyways... ^^ I'm not leaving okay? I just. wanted. to. have....fun... in my boring. life.
KK. I <3 You guys and I would NEVER leave just like that.

But it is true that I'm not going to be here 7/9 - 7/16.
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I'm going to US! Yipeeee!!!! >¡ä<!! kk.
I'm going to go to Abercrombie, and spend all my savings on clothes and jewlery and blabhlahblahbah..


=_= AS IF.

Seriously people. I'm not that rich. Right now I have like.. $0.00 in my wallet. I'm just going there to visit my sister and just remember the times that I was there in US. Sigh... I miss my old school.. (No Offense People)
But it's that feeling you get when you look back at your old yearbook and like think about how much you miss them and what you threw away and stuff. You feel all empty inside.
But the problem is that it's SUMMER VACATION. So that means I can't go to Travis because:

1) The school locked me out (I have to climb over that wire fence to get in)
2) It's open but it's deserted.
3) I get caught trying to break in and I go to jail and I can't come to Korea till colleage or something and then people are going to hate me for that and blahblahblhalbhlahblah...

OKAY. But trutyfully, I want to go back and spend one day of school there as if nothing ever happened. You know, hang out with old friends like the old days. But... many of them probably forgot me... T-T

Just a couple of people here and there who'll remember me.
I wasn't popular or anything. Just your ordinary, nice, quiet, girl.
(Inner Self: YEA RIGHT!)
[ME: It's TRUE THOUGH! I became much more CRAZIER in TRAVIS!]
(Inner Self: -_-...)

See, there was this.. teacher.. that was my orchestra conductor. He was:
1) ABSOLUTELY CRAZY (breaking his baton in front of the class and then yelling at us for being really sucky)
2) Funky Hairstyle (You know that afro hairstyle kinda.. it was... curly..==;;)
3) RED. (Like You YUSUN! :3 KK.. but redER cause he was yelling at us and not laughing.)

Would you like to hear?

Yes?
No?

Well I'm telling you anyways (mwahahaha)
Okay. I was 4th Chair 1st Violin (sorry if this doesn't make sense to people not in orchestra) in Advance Orchestra (I'm not BRAGGING. K? IT was like intermediate but if you just asked him to join he would let you.) and I was at Travis Elememtary/Middle School for like.. 5 years (2nd grade - 6th grade) I had this friend (BEEEP*) and she was an AWESOME violinist. Korean too.. But.. a long time ago, she was my BESTEST friend (you know about that SAME RACE and stuff. NOBODY ELSE was freakin ASIAN THERE TILL SHE CAME!) and we would ALWAYS sit next to each other and talk to each other. Then one day... (god it kills me to say this) we played this compliment game where you compliment each other (It wasl ike.. 4th grade people.. ) and me and BEEP would always sit next to each other. But that day, she wasn't there. The next day, I found her with this other PREETY, SMART, FUNNY, NICE, etc girl and I realized that I had completely lost her. You see, I lost MANY friends this way. I'm ALWAYS the person who becomes nice and befriends a NEW kid at school But soon, they ALWAYS leaveme for someone who's POPULAR. (Happened EVERY YEAR) So, BEEP became popular and our BEST FRIENDS FOREVER broke. She still talks to me like nothing happened. It's been 3 years. Who would remember eh? (that sorta thing). But I STILL REMEMBER. I STILL CARE. I CAN STILL FEEL THAT SCAR. but maybe it was better for her. Maybe it was better to let her go. Maybe...

There's a lot of things I regret. and I'm sure everyone had this experience. People move on. You can't hold on to them forever. but what's the meaning of best friends forever when they always leave you?

I NEVER leave my friends. EVER. EVER. EVER. EVER. EVER.
I understand when they leave to become popular and the smartest or funniest, or preetiest.
See, I learned to give up.

Wow. that was depressing and COMPLETELY off topic. okay. lets continue the story shall we :/

Okay. So she was my ONLY friend in orchestra. (later, I became friends with couple of japanese girls and she became friends with the entire orchestra and became like teachers pet or something but you know, there's nothing I can do but smile at her when she says HI EUNGI to me. It's just a mask. But I soon forget) There was this another Korean girl in 8th grade named BEEP2* and she was an AWESOME pianoist. (THE TEACHERS PET IN ORCHESTRA. SERIOUSLY. SHE GOT ALL THE SOLOS AND STUFF.) My teacher was so nice to her. BEEP2 was ALWAYS favored and stuff. But I didn't really care for that limelight. I was just glad that she found herself at home at Travis. (I HATE limelight.) then people found out that she was leaving. EVERYONE was sad. I'm serious. EVERYONE was sad. Then I found out that I was leaving to Korea too. I realized that only my closest friends really cared. (I had.. couple of friends after 5 years at same school)  others cared too. like some 8/7th graders. But truthfully, they cared about BEEP2 more than me. I'm not jealous. But then, our teacher found out that we both were leaving and he was upset you know. Honestly, I could see it in his eyes that he cared more about BEEP2 more than me. OFCOURSE! She's way better than me. Much experienced, More talent, Funnier. ETC. But isn't it really upsetting that your TEACHER prefers someone other that you? I was expecting the same saddness as BEEP2 but I never received that.

I know it's really selfish of me to say this. but this is some events that remain in my mind and I want to post it before I forget it. A memoir should I say.

It's that feeling when you aren't the main character in a play. You're just the underhand who BACK UPS the hero/ine. This is why people should always ALWAYS have friends. Friends that would NEVER leave you. Friends that would always help you. never forget you.

Those are T.R.U.E friends.

If you leave your friend, your REALLY hurting them. Now, I think back and this.. thing keeps popping up my mind. It just feels like that I was the one to help them fly. I was the one who cured their wings. But sooner or later, after they're healed, they fly away. Leaving you with couple of feathers as memories for what me and that person once shared. It's is a beautiful sight to see that once hurt animal fly away like nothing ever happened. It's a beautiful sight to see your friend fit in with the rest. So that they're never hurt. So that people will protect them from harm. When they stare at you after couple of months, what can you do? Could you be able to glare at them for leaving you? Could you be able to say "Why did you ditch me? We were suppose to be friends!"? Could you be able to say those out loud after they say, "Hi _insert name_! How have you been?" and smile at you acting like nothing ever happened between you? All you can do is pretend like nothing happened and put on your fake smile mask and reply. The words come out naturally. But inside, you know you're breaking and that you never EVER want to see them again for what you did to you.

that's what I first felt. But now, I have to keep reminding myself that for hating them for leaving you. is just selfish. I remind myself that it was a miracle that they would talk to me. that's the art of forgetting and forgiving.

I still talk to her. She sends me stuff. We're okay now. We may not be best friends, but we're good friends. But now, I'm not sure if she still remembers. Even if she doesn't, I still do. and that's what counts.

- This has been a MEMOIR of Eungi Choi :3-

>-< Sorry for not posting people... ehehehhehehehhe;;

Ummm.. Okay. This WAS suppose to be posted a LOOONG time ago but.. I got.. .erm... offtrack. Does anyone know about Comic World? Well, it's like this convention that bring all the manga/anime lovers in Korea to an event where you can cosplay, compete in contests, and buy many goodies and art that other people drew. There's... A. L.O.T. of people who come. You can BARELY move around unless you bump into someone. .. I'm SERIOUS. *picture posted later*

Let me introduce you about COSPLAY (ÄÚ½ºÇ÷¡ÀÌ):
Cosplay is when people get costumes (either homemade or bought $$$) and dress up like the favorite character. The costumes are EXTREMELY expensive (depending on how decorative it is) but people do have fun. The ones dressed up are like CELEBS there and people take photos. They like pose in front of the camera and such. Also, during COMIC WORLD, there's an event where a team (dressed up) performs in front of an audience with either scenes or songs.

WARNING: :D It's way better if you dress up as the RIGHT character for you.

For more info (posted later) ask Sarah or Me.

BTW I HIGHLY SUGGEST YOU GO THERE ONCE! FOR ALL YOU ANIME/MANGA FANS.

Link: http://www.comicw.co.kr or http://ÄڹͿùµå

Chrono Crusade // Rosette Christopher
Chrono Crusade.. Gotta Watch Anime/Manga. (I read and watched all :#) They have different endings and even though it's gruesome (demon killing) and a littbit horror, it's a really.. really sad story if you keep watching it. (³¡³¯¶§ ÁøÂ¥¿ï¾ú¾î. T^T)

?? // ??
This one I'm not sure what it is.. Never saw this character before. But truthfully, the girl's really pretty..

?? // ??
Again, I'm not familiar with this anime. (there's THOUSANDS of character here!)
But this does remind me of a Girl version of L from Death Note. X_x *shot*

Dororo // °³±¸¸®Áß»ç Äɷη΢¾
>/////< It's µµ·Î·Î HUMAN VERSION! I thought this was freakin cool!!
I ¢¾ Keroro

?? // ??
Hmmm.. I thought this was from One Piece but.. I never was really interested in One Piece (watched few episodes here and there). But you gotta admit, the costume ROX.

Chi (Dark?) // Chobits
0_o Holy Cow..
.. This is the meaning of Comic World.
Chobits (a little bit perverted anime with humor) is.. umm..--
anyways.. the costume is seriously crazy (in a good way). Must have took EXTREMELY long to either make or to buy.

Now the BEST picture/dresser I took
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WARNING:
THIS PICTURE IS NOT SUITABLE FOR PEOPLE WITH WEAK HEARTS.
THANK YOU.
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..okay.. here I go..

Robby // D-Grayman
One. Word.

ABSOLUTELY AMAZING

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SERIOUSLY...

(people that's a GIRL. but the character's a BOY)
HOW THE HECK IS SHE THAT PREEETTTTYYY?!!!!!!!!!!!
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I've seen man Robbys here and there but this is the best one yet.


2nd Part of Comic World Cosplay Coming Soooooon~

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IF YOU STEAL THIS WITHOUT PERMISSION
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These took A LONG TIME to edit, and upload. TT

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When we were in US, me and my sister once threw this secret surprise for my mom's birthday. She bought this huge basket of blood red roses and we turned off all the lights. My mom was really surprised and she almost.. ALMOST cried when she read my sister's LAST letter. (My sister's NOT dead okay?)

So, this time... when Christine's not around, I decided that this should be special. that I should work as hard as we both did when we were in US. So with the money I collected, I made all these chocolate gifts and bought Cardinalls for my mom and my dad.

It took me 7 hours to complete it but in the end when they realized that this is all homemade (except flowers ofcourse), it was worth it.

With the help of dear old naver, I found out how to make these little boxes and cases for Hershey's Kisses. So using my talent of origami (which is a funny thing because me and my sister are... you could say good at art. my sister's an EXPERT and she DIDNT go to ART HAGWON. but my parent's have no talent in art whatsoever..;;;), I created the boxes (includes lid), 18 tiny cases which take like 2 hours to complete, and wrapped then neatly in shiny ribbons. Why do I do this?

...cause I'm just glad that I'm alive. Thanks to my parents. If it was for them, you would be dead right now and if you think about how much money they spent for you, you'll realize that they did a LOT of things just for you. Don't be Selfish.

-Remember: Boxes, Ribbon Arrangement, Kisses Wrappers were all made by me with the help of few blogs on Naver-

-This is what the finished box looks like. Cover is white, bottom is light yellow.-

-This is what the inside of the box looks like. See those casing of the kisses? Hard to make, but quite worth it. :]

GAHHHHH!!! IT's TOO...PREETY..TO....EAT... T^T.. oh..Hey! It's Red White and Blue!-

-The key to this holiday, Cardinals that I bought for 10,000W. :P-

Tips: A true gift comes from your heart, not from your wallet. That's why 90% of my gifts are handmade unless due to certain circumstances such as time or laziness.

I think I should own my own gift shop. Taking in orders. Roses, flowers, chocolate for 7 hours of time. ¤±¤µ¤± nice doing buisness with you.

This week, remember that parents helped you more than you could even imagine. Try not to curse to them behind your back. Be glad that they didn't throw you to the orphanage where you would've never learned parental love. Thank you to all the parents out there in the world!